Oh Hey! It’s Alyssa #20: The Motions

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35 Comments

  2. ???

    This is powerful, thanks for sharing it.

    True story: I tried to set a reminder from someone on fire once! In a fire pit, don’t worry.

    Turns out modern fabrics don’t really burn. They melt slightly and go out. It was not satisfying.

    • But was it smelly at least?

      In my pyro period I learned many things, chief among them synthetic objects stink in a special way after burning that natural fibers just can’t compete with.

  5. This is raw and honest and beautiful. Thank you for sharing it. So much love to you.

  7. This is so open and beautiful and heartwrenching Alyssa

    Love and light and hugs <3

  8. This is heartbreaking and honest and beautiful. Thank you for sharing this <3

  9. This one made me cry, this is beautiful and in so many ways perfect. Thank you for being so real. Feeling a little bit less alone ❤.

  13. “I refuse to live as though my value can be determined by who is or isn’t loving me.” <3 <3

    So sorry you're hurting. Thank you for being real with us.

  14. YES to admitting you’re not okay!!!!! A close friend of mine is going through a breakup and has also been saying “I’m not okay and I don’t need people to think I am”. This is revolutionary to me and I admire it SO much. Honouring where you’re at. Amazing ???

  15. Jesus christ, I feel all of this so much right now too. But reading this comic is a very good reminder, that its okay to not be okay, and that someday we will be.

    Thank you Alyssa <3

  17. 53. ‘We mainly suppose the experiential quality to be an intrinsic quality of the physical object’-this is the so-called systematic illusion of color. Perhaps it is also that of love. But I am not willing to go there-not just yet. I believed in you. -Bluets, Maggie Nelson

    Thank you for sharing this, Alyssa <3

  18. This reminds me of when I realized: I can miss and still love what I know isn’t good/right for me. ??

  19. “no amount of dishonesty i uncover can negate that i loved her fully. that i loved her without conditions.”

    i feel this
    thanks for this whole damn thing

  24. I swear it gets better. I swear, I swear, I swear on my dog.

    (but also if someone had told me that a period of time ago, I’d have laughed until I cried and fallen on the floor. and then probably cursed.)

  25. This is beautiful and wise and so compelling. Thank you for sharing with us, Alyssa!

  26. Dude, are you trying to make me cry?!

    (Because if so, it’s totally working. Thanks for such a beautiful and honest comic)

  29. This really spoke to me, it’s such a cliche but, it’s so brave to be able to send your thoughts like that out into the universe, because no one wants to feel vulnerable or disposal, much less express it publicly. I don’t like the idea of anyone suffering because they feel like they’re not enough, but we all do. It makes existence a little less lonely knowing that I think

  30. The over abundant accountability you took on — wow, it’s been a couple years since my last breakup but I still get those flashes of bitterness over this. That my first reaction to a breakup was to blame it all on myself in hopes of convincing her to stay. Sending you all the love and comfort for what I know is a long, scary process of healing.

    The two things that helped me get through my breakup were the album “& The Way She Likes It” by Allison Weiss (and all of her songs, really, felt like they were written just for me and my broken relationship) and a horribly designed app for breakups that I found after googling “apps for a broken heart” and “breakup app” out of desperation. I wish I could remember the name of it, as stupid as it sounds, having a guided meditation I listened to every night kept me from sobbing myself to sleep and actually let me get some rest.

    I don’t know why I’m giving out unsolicited advice, of course nothing is going to make you feel better but time. So here’s to time and getting better bit by bit.

  31. After 4 years of looking at Autostraddle almost every day, I am leaving a comment for the first time to say thank you Alyssa from the bottom of my heart for this comic- it couldn’t have come at a better time for me and resonated with me so much. Thank you, thank you thank you and I wish you healing and peace.

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