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Cameron is an illustrator hailing from Ohio. When she’s not drawing, she’s probably very, very quietly having loud thoughts about: queer things, her eventual shop, what to watch next on Netflix, food, names for her future pets, and tumblr.
Cameron has written 76 articles for us.
I love this – both the concept and the visuals with the dots/squiggles. Thank you <3
Oh so relatable. It helped me a bit to realize that I was always prioritizing other people’s perceptions/opinions/understanding over my own, and assuming that if they differed, that automatically made the other people right and me wrong.
I love your comics and the way they look but man it’s hard to read tiny grey font on a white background for me. Is there like a transcript I could read or some other option? Probs I am the only one with terrible eyesight here today so nbd but maybe a future perk to add? Again, I love your comics. <3
I’m reading on my phone and also had trouble! I think font a little bolder would have helped.
Also loved the comic, and also wanted to say that the text was REALLY difficult for me to read.
+1
I’ve written up a transcript for you/anyone else who is having trouble with it. I hope it’s helpful!
Panel 1: I’ve spent a lot of time lately thinking about my mental health. I mean, I always do, but before, it tended more toward
Panel 2:”sinking into it” than
Panel 3: “thinking about it.” And looking at what doesn’t feel right instead of just confirming that, yes, what doesn’t feel right still doesn’t feel right. The checking was a problem. IS a problem.
Panel 4: I’m always checking.
do I understand the social relationship I have with this person?
did I remember that correctly?
did I say what I meant or have I colored it with the wrong tone or inflection?
I just remembered something that changes the stance I took in a previous conversation. did I just accidentally lie?
Do I accidentally lie a lot?
I’ve overthought this one situation to the point where I don’t remember what actually happened – you know like when you say a word so many times it loses meaning? That.
how do I figure out what’s right if I can’t trust my memory?
did I actually like that movie or did I just like the people I saw it with? Or did I just like the bite-size/easily digestible synthesized emotions I experienced?
does the feeling I am feeling make sense?
who am I even?
Panel 5: At some point I decided I was an unreliable source.
no wonder I feel crazy all the time.
this is an interrogation.
Panel 6: “hey, are you sure you didn’t miss something and maybe it’s another issue entirely?”
“No, I’m not! God, you are EXHAUSTING.”
Cameron-thanks for your comic. Luckily a lot of these thoughts have calmed down for me since I upped my Celexa to 40mg in 2015, but I still grapple with them occasionally. Hugs to all of us!
love this love you etc
Ugh I feel this so hard. Most of my mental health issues seem to summarize down to ‘is my experience real?’ which my logic brain knows is absurd because it’s the experience I had so of course it’s real, but my feelings/subjective brain have a lot of doubts far too often.